I used to channel poetry and today, out in the woods, She-Wolf had me reclaim this lost part of my soul expression... So....

Introducing my new poem, 'Phosphoric Woman'...

Sensitive woman,

You weren't born here to play 'small.'

You are made of Phosphoric fire and moons:

You are a beautiful, glorious, messy paradox

of roses and she-wolves.

“Highly sensitive and magical souls – who actually have the power to heal themselves (and are often the ‘secret healers’ of the world) – often spend years seeking fixes externally, thinking they need others to heal them. In their feelings of brokenness, they begin to innocently ‘outsource’ their healing power..”

~ Nicole Barton

We are so delighted to share a feature we curated for Kindred Spirit Magazine all around how to work with Archetypal Remedies for Deep Self-Healing 🌙🐺🌹✨⁣

“Bone by bone, hair by hair, Wild Woman comes back. Through night dreams, through events half understood and half remembered...”

~ Clarissa Pinkola Estés, Women Who Run With the Wolves

Years ago, I was not living my unapologetic wildest dreams and desires as a healer. I didn't even resonate with the idea of being ‘wild’ (quite honestly, the idea terrified me).

There were lost pieces of my wild soul, wounded and shattered, hidden out of sight in my ‘shadow bag’ of wounding, that I’d suppressed and shoved behind me, never to be seen again.

Secretly, I deeply feared *rejection* and I felt *unworthy* - inside and out. I was full of shame. 

‘It may be the first day of your life, the prime of youth or several decades in, when Medicine Woman calls you. Your name on her list. Her new initiate. She crept in whilst you were sleeping, when you over-exerted, when you kissed him, or ate that, or lived there or pushed too hard just one time too many. She crept in and curled up in your cells, your heart, waiting to meet you. Longing to know you. Longing for you to know her, at last…. (Lucy Pearce)

‘And the real medicine is learning to love those aspects of ourselves back home, and welcome the parts of ourselves that we have shamed and judged and rejected (aka to ‘self-heal’). ’

- Nicole Barton

Hello, sensitive one,

Do you ever feel the deep fear and shame at the idea of peeling back your mask and revealing your authentic self? And does that stop you fully opening to your healing gifts?  Perhaps you fear “what will my partner think?  What will my friends think? What will my parents think, if I open to a more magical, meaningful purpose?”.

I so feel your heart, beauty - and I know how tender it can be to even open to a journey of reclaiming our true, authentic selves, when we’ve spent years ‘fitting in’..  Your scared heart is so welcome here.

I remember a time when I simultaneously deeply longed to follow the nudges of a deeper soul calling I had to a more meaningful purpose and life, yet deeply resisted opening to my gifts as a healer, because I felt that my deep sensitivity, my natural (‘woo’) self and my true emotions were ‘too much’ and would be rejected and shamed - by my family, friends or anyone who I told.

‘My point of view is that what it really means when we have some fears is that we are just on the cusp of actually beginning to see what IS true for us - and that there’s just a bit more healing to do - of our wounded inner healer (who fears losing approval, bless her heart).  It’s really just a deeper call into healing ourselves (which is what our Archetypal Apothecary modality is all about - especially the first layer of SELF - OR ‘SOUL’ - HEALING). ’

- Nicole Barton

One of the deep fears that the beautiful, sensitive women who are called to journey with Archetypal Lupa is that they find themselves stuck in wondering:

“What will people think of me if I become a healer?  What if people judge me? Can I really do this?”

And oh my heart, I so feel you in this one, if this is you, beauty.  I know how the fear of losing   a p p r o v a l   can stop us from even ‘accessing’ our deeper wisdom and wilder dreams and yearnings for a more meaningful life, living our soul purpose.

‘Archetypal Lupa - or She-Wolf - offers an energetic ‘permission slip’ to be our true, authentic selves.  To begin to reclaim the parts of our soul that have been lost to this wounding of ‘not enoughness’ - the fear of judgement and rejection, the fear of being ‘outcast’ as a lone wolf, especially for being our true selves. ’

- Nicole Barton

Oh, how I know you may resist that label of ‘wild’ (maybe it’s terrifying) - and maybe it also somewhat excites you too, deep down… 

I so feel your heart, because that was once me.  I was contemplating the other day, how I used to feel totally the opposite of ‘wild’ - I felt caged, trapped and contained, not ‘free’ and ‘fully expressed’.  I felt stuck in a dull, grey mundane life - a life I just didn’t feel fulfilled in. I see now, I was the Archetypal “Good Girl”; I lived my life in fear of judgement and rejection, seeking approval, sticking close to the conditioning that ‘success’ looked a certain way, and that I had to ‘fit into’ that. And, in contorting myself this way, I dishonoured my ‘No’ and shoved down and shamed my true authentic self-expression, keeping myself small.  

Of course, I knew somewhere, deep down, that I had ‘wild’ emotions - sometimes rage or deep emotional outbursts - but I shamed these ‘wild emotions’ as ‘too much’ (whilst feeling ‘not enough’) - feeling like the ‘weird’ one, who couldn’t just be ‘normal’ like everyone else and contain my raw feelings.  

‘The world needs the unique Remedy you’re here to offer.’

- Nicole Barton

Will you come on a journey with me? Imagine, just for a moment, that you step out of the life you are in right now - you’re just 3 years older, wiser, more expressed, and you’ve been on a journey of initiation into the woman you long to become.​​​​​​​​​

You’re now what people would call a ‘medicine woman’ - a true healer. You’re a woman who has been into the depths of her own wounds and learned to alchemise them into gold - and you’ve gained the kind of embodied wisdom and beauty that you see in women who have crinkly foreheads, and kind eyes. You’re an ‘old soul’ kind of medicinal one, a sensitive one, who knows and embraces her uniqueness.

“We all want the alchemical gold - yet very few of us are prepared to do the necessary deep work to lovingly reclaim it from within the darkness...  This January, I share how we can harness Archetypal Remedy ‘Aurum’ (Gold) to truly reclaim our power to kick-start your New Year - if you are feeling courageous enough for true, loving healing…”

- Nicole Barton

We are so delighted to share a feature we curated for Kindred Spirit Magazine all around our Archetypal Apothecary Remedy Aurum 🌟✨⁣

We all want the alchemical gold - yet very few of us are prepared to do the necessary deep work to lovingly reclaim it from within the darkness... This January, I share how we can harness Archetypal Remedy ‘Aurum’ (Gold) to truly reclaim our power to kick-start your New Year - if you are feeling courageous enough for true, loving healing…

"The real truth is, our work in healing is never done. If you keep going with 'quick fixes' you will forever need a guide, yes. In the Archetypal Apothecary path, though, I'm teaching you to own your POWER to *heal yourself.* That might take a little longer to learn to begin with - but then you've got your *own tools* for a lifetime - and you know your power to use them."

~ Nicole Barton

I was having a rich conversation with one of my previous guides, and now dear friend, Lian a little while ago, in which we were talking about what had unfolded since I had a shamanic healing with her.

I've been in the deep work, since the healing, of reclaiming a lost part of my soul from young adulthood - and I have found myself being nudged back to old commitments from that time, including movement, yoga, music and horse-riding.

And what stood out in our conversation for me was something I've been saying for a while about how healing isn't something to 'go to someone else for' and expect a "quick fix"; it's about learning how to *integrate* what comes up in our healings for ourselves.

"Often the time, energy, financial, spiritual investments of healing will look huge - yet it’s the (often invisible) costs of NOT HEALING that often go much deeper, to the bone."

~ Nicole Barton

I was feeling heartbroken the other day.

It might seem like a small thing, but I had the most beautiful deep earthly-green ancient victorian homeopathic medicine bottle, that I’d bought myself to honour and celebrate my rebirth of Archetypal Apothecary.  It was deeply symbolic and meaningful to me, despite not costing a lot of money. I’d had a Rose in it, the entire journey with Archetypal Rosa recently, which felt symbolic of the Remedies being part of the bottle.

And my baby girl smashed it, whilst playing.  Cue all the emotions around it being broken - anger, grief, applying meaning about what the symbolism was.  I was raging inside, and sobbing, though I gave Lily a cuddle through my tears and told her it was all ok (thank goodness for this healing work).

My inner child instantly wanted to ‘fix’ it, but the right hand corner of it had shattered into tiny shards; it couldn’t be glued.

"There's no greater privilege than to become who you truly are"

~ Carl Jung

One of the ancient healing wisdom bodies of my Archetypal Apothecary healing modality is homeopathy. It's a medical system that I was born to serve in this lifetime, and I've witnessed healing miracle upon healing miracle with its magic - both for myself and other women.

I no longer serve homeopathy traditionally - I serve the remedies as Archetypes - yet it is a deep part of my lineage, providing healing on a deep level and also providing the foundational technology I harness to map out a woman's soul plan. A soul map helping women understand their natural make up, their soul gifts, and the wounds they need to heal in order to fulfil their potential and live their purpose.

And one of homeopathy's most important principles of 'similia similibus' is woven right through my path.

“This is why healing the Feminine is our most important work. As women and as healers. It's both for us - and for the future generations - and for the loss of Ancestral feminine wisdom body that we have created, without meaning to - because we outsourced our power to the medical science that over-rode our deep innate knowledge.”

~ Nicole Barton

I don't often speak to the 'Ancestral Layer' Archetypal Remedies of our path, but they're a big part of our Soul Map - they are one of the 4 layers of Remedies that women need to heal in order to live their soul purpose (especially as healers).

You see, all cultures at a moment in time have their 'wounds' - ancestral wounds ('miasms') that are passed down in our DNA through epigenetics. Medicine women have always talked of 'ancestral healing' yet modern science itself didn't know, until fairly recently, that epigenetics explained this ancestral piece. Science recently discovered that what we do in our lifetime altars our DNA, which explains why what our ancestors lived through shows up in our bodies - even generations down the line.

“We are all walking around with our own unique collection of Archetypal Remedy "wounding states" that want to be worked with for healing. And so the first choice is, as healers, which 'layer' of remedy do we serve? Some will be more 'surface' layer than 'deeper' layers (read my article on Hering's direction of cure) - and these surface layer remedies are usually the ones that need healing first, so we can slowly and gently open at our soul's pace.”

~ Nicole Barton

One of the things I teach healers to do, deeper in the path, is how to read and match people's energetic "potency" when they are serving their unique remedy.

And this is *beyond* important.

Because, though many of the 'quick fix' approaches to healing (innocently) teach 'one size fits all', not everyone's healing is linear and requires the same remedy and potency.

“Because the body is more clever than we know. It will reveal to us where our healing lies. And it will do so at the pace we are ready to journey.”

~ Nicole Barton

Sometimes when I talk to women I can predict - just by knowing their Archetypal Remedy constitution - their natural physical health patterns through life.

"Oh, you experienced a lot of tonsillitis, or chest infections?" I could have told them that, just by knowing that they liked ice cream, feared the dark and had big eyes and deep sensitivity (all elements of Archetypal Phosphorus).

It sounds weird, I know, but each Archetypal Remedy will have its own unique set of physical health patterns (which is something that's unique about the way my modality works, as archetypal psychology alone lacks this physical map).

“I didn't know it then, but this was my body calling me to listen - to hear something important of my soul.”

~ Nicole Barton

I spent a good chunk of my lifetime contorting myself into boxes - trying to fit in and be 'acceptable' to the world, putting on a mask of 'perfection,' and particularly ignoring my sensitive needs in case I was seen as 'too much'. My deepest fear was abandonment, after my dad left, age 4, and I did everything I could to stop that happening again (including denying my healing gifts for a long time after I was called).

And that trying so hard to be 'loved' had me, on several occasions, burn out, into complete exhaustion, with mysterious womb symptoms, tension, and tightness in my body, deep anxiety and overwhelm.