I’m Nicole Barton - or ‘MEDICINA Alchemilla, Apothecary of Ancient Healing Truth.’

And I’ve created my heart’s deepest desires for my dream magical, healing soul-led business by learning to heal, discover, embody and express my natural truth - as a deeply sensitive, wild, magical, powerful Neurodivergent Feminine witchy healer - who grew up learning to suppress and mask myself so I’d fit in and stay loved.  

I’ve done that by learning one crucial thing: that TRUE healing is really about learning to LOVE and welcome home the lost parts of ourselves that we have shamed, feared, guilted and suppressed (especially our sensitivity, our Feminine power, our wildness and our magic), until we are back to the soul-wholeness we were born with.

Before I came to know that, I spent over a decade trying to ‘mend’ my ‘over-sensitivity’ - feeling I was ‘too much’ - and ‘fix’ my anxious, overwhelmed meltdowns and big emotional outbursts, shaming my capacity to connect to ‘other worlds’ with my clairvoyance and other things I felt were going to be judged as ‘weird’. I pushed forward enough to eventually try to create a healing business and - despite transitioning from corporate branding, with an MBA - I struggled, becoming exhausted, frustrated, doubting my gifts and feeling like a failure. During this time, I spent almost £90,000 on ‘quick fixes’ (in both healing and marketing) because I was sold the story that it was ‘easy’ to become a healer, and I just needed to ‘fix’ all my brokenness.

What I learned - that was really profound - was that becoming a healer is actually a ‘becoming’ - a ‘becoming’ that requires us to lovingly heal ourselves by reclaiming our souls, first and foremost, from integrity (but not to ‘fix’ ourselves - because we aren’t broken).

I discovered that ‘soul’ business is different to ‘muggle’ business: we can’t just go to our normal ‘hustle’ and ‘logic’; becoming a healer requires us to initiate ourselves fully into Feminine soul and magic - and reclaim and welcome home the lost parts of our fragmented souls.

Most importantly, the journey of becoming a healer requires us to learn to heal (love) our own wounds first, so that we can become healers, teachers and guides for others in the world - initiating them into loving themselves in their own wounds. 

I also learned that the journey of becoming a healer, usually surfaces some more wounds for us to heal along the way…

My heart so deeply feels for women who are feeling the deep call to be a healer - because I had a LOT of fear when I was opening to that journey - from fear of judgement, perfectionism, self-doubt, impostor syndrome, doubting my magic, fear of failure (and success!) to procrastination - I know it all well. Because of these fears, I once felt it was impossible to create what I’ve created now, but I learned something that really helped…

The thing that truly, finally created lasting change for me was the journey back to soul…

I had been so obsessed with ‘fixing’ myself - and especially my deep sensitivities. Yet no matter how much ‘fixing’ I did, I was still cycling around the same fears, with a deep lack of clarity on how to stop feeling stuck in a mundane life and bring my gifts into the world in a meaningful way - and I was also terrified about opening to my gifts fully, let alone actually sharing my voice and story.

It took deep ‘personal healing’ reclamation - a journey back to my soul - to discover the real remedy was learning to heal myself (aka love myself back to wholeness).

Through this reclamation, I learned that I found it terrifying to open to and embody my healing purpose, for the (largely unconscious) fears of 3 things - which I’ve since seen is common to all sensitive souls who are here for a more meaningful, magical purpose:

1. losing Control (e.g. “what if I fail?”),

2. losing Approval (e.g. “what if everyone judges me?”) or

3. losing Security (e.g. “what if I can’t support myself?”)

Even when I had come a considerable way in healing myself, I hadn’t realised that despite having healed a LOT, the very call to my gifts had opened up something else that simply required more healing.

The work of healing our sensitive souls and opening to our gifts as healers calls us into an initiation.  An initiation into loving ourselves so deeply that we can reclaim the parts of our souls that feel lost and fragmented. To healing our own wounds by lovingly seeing that all is welcome, and tenderly leaning to see that we have the power to truly come into alignment with our purpose.

The truth is it is not just our ‘tools’ (though they are useful) which are our gifts but US - we each have our own unique Archetypal Soul Remedy - and it is our own deep healing of our wounds that offers medicine to others who are experiencing similar wounding.

That’s why learning to truly heal ourselves first (rather than relying on ‘quick fixes’ to ‘fix us’) is crucial in the journey of discovering and learning to express our gifts - in the journey of becoming a healer, teacher or guide.

As I journeyed into my soul path, I began to notice that I was working with a unique combination of 3 ancient wisdom bodies to heal myself and others - homeopathy, archetypal psychology and energy healing - and I developed and tested my own self (soul) healing modality and soul-mapping method, which I now call “Archetypal Apothecary”. This modality guides women through the ‘3 Layers’ that I journeyed through myself for deep healing and embodiment of my ‘inner apothecary’ - Healing, Discovery and Expression - because I know that, with the guidance grounded in the wisdom of my own journey of a decade of becoming a healer, it is possible for other women to make that same journey in just 3 years, saving time, money and energy - and journeying at their soul’s pace, and from integrity (I frequently joke that it’s possible without having to run away and live in a cabin in the woods, though I know that sometimes feels preferable).

I worked with what I now distill as the 8 Elements which weave throughout my path - opening my heart (through fear) to deeper love and possibility, embodiment - going into the body to heal my shame, guilt and fear and tend my nervous system, soul alchemy - discovering who I was born here to be and my unique gifts, self-illumination and liberation - working with my inner little girl to love her in her old stories and beliefs so I could move through fear, invocation - invoking archetypes and calling in the new story to embody, manifestation - learning to own my creative power to manifest a more meaningful life, majesty - lovingly owning my Feminine power, and community - surrounding myself with likeminded souls to support along the journey.

I was born here to serve healers in becoming who they were born to be. As I have healed and reclaimed my unique soul purpose, I’ve enjoyed the deeper meaning of BEING my medicine (and material success too, though living my purpose is the real beauty and success for me these days).

This is why I created my healing modality - to help sensitive women who know they are here for a more meaningful purpose as a healer to open to their gifts, through all the fears that arise in that journey.  I know it’s not only possible, but imperative for sensitive souls to become the healers they were born to be.

I’ve journeyed deep into soul healing, and it’s transformed my life - and the lives of others, as I’ve shared from that place of experience.

I can help you to heal your soul and discover the deeper more meaningful purpose you are here to serve (whatever that might be) - even, and especially, if that feels terrifying - so that you can bring it into the world with a relaxed nervous system, confidence and embodied wisdom. These 3 steps and 8 elements - are critical to becoming a healer, teacher or guide. I know you’ve been sold many ‘quick fixes’ in your journey - and perhaps you’re disenchanted with false promises so far, so I deeply feel your heart if you’re doubting your possibility. It breaks my heart that so many sensitive souls give up on their soul’s purpose because they’ve had an experience that makes them mistrust, which is why I offer a path of integrity that can help you truly step into who you long to become - from a place of love, nurturing of your nervous system, and in alignment with your life as it is, that will help you to tenderly *become* a healer, teacher or guide over time.

The question is: are you ready to tenderly step in so you can bloom and create your own meaningful life?

With all my love,

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