Do you feel ‘selfish’ for honouring your soul? Your invitation…
Honour your wild soul this Easter… Ayyhooooooo 🐺
‘It may be the first day of your life, the prime of youth or several decades in, when Medicine Woman calls you. Your name on her list. Her new initiate. She crept in whilst you were sleeping, when you over-exerted, when you kissed him, or ate that, or lived there or pushed too hard just one time too many. She crept in and curled up in your cells, your heart, waiting to meet you. Longing to know you. Longing for you to know her, at last.
And what feels like the end is in fact a beginning, of a new road, an unknown path of pain and healing. She will show you how to slow down, she will run her fingers roughly through your life and help you sort the busyness from what matters, she will show you how to find support… and who you really are, beyond your roles and expectations… and even more beyond the System the world has forced you into. She transports you into the timelessness of big pains and tiny joys. Initiates you into your strength. Into your love. Into your courage. Into a world beyond your control.
She has sent me an invitation. I see yours too, tucked in your bag, amongst all the receipts and bills, the pens and detritus of life. Take it out.
It is time.’
~ Lucy H. Pearce
Hello, sensitive soul,
One of the common fears that can come up when we contemplate a journey into our self-healing and more meaningful gifts is the idea that we will be judged as ‘selfish’ for creating time and space for ourselves (I was contemplating that this may be showing up for women this Easter holiday, so if that’s you, I feel your heart so deeply).
There’s often the deep fear of ‘what will people think of me if I choose this journey of healing myself and opening to my healing gifts?’ - alongside a simultaneous ‘knowing’ that you just can’t keep carrying on juggling ‘all the balls’ anymore, and that you’re being called to be more true to yourself and carve out time to honour your needs and desires (and who you really are).
Often, aspiring healers (whether that’s healing ourselves or others) are burned out by people-pleasing, because of this fear of being judged as ‘selfish’. And because of this wounding, the natural care-givers of the world - sensitive women who are born here to be healers - can (innocently) end up giving too much of themselves away, leaving little time for their magical gifts to be honoured in the way that’s truly being called for. It’s heart-breaking - yet utterly understandable, given our cultural domestication.
So, how does this show up?
It can be hard to look here, but if we are willing to look, it can show up in the way we find ourselves constantly ‘distracted’ - and dysregulated - by our people-pleasing tendencies. In times like:
🖤 That time we judged ourselves as ‘selfish’ and over-exerted ourselves, and pushed too hard, one time too many, and our nervous system felt fried (when we really wanted deep rest)
🖤 That argument that we had with our family member, because they didn’t do what we wanted them to do (even though we didn’t use our voice to ask for our needs)
🖤 The time our child demanded *more* attention, even though we *just* wanted 5 minutes to ourselves in the bath (and we let them come in anyway)
🖤 That time we denied our healing gifts when someone asked us something and we could have spoken truth, but shied away from it in case they thought we were ‘weird’ (despite longing to be a healer)
These can all be ‘secret’ signs that Archetypal She-Wolf is calling to us for personal healing of our ‘inner wildness from love’ - particularly for women who were born to be healers (and are the natural ‘care-givers’ of the world).
My point of view is that most healers come here and experience this particular wounding where we give too much of ourselves away and then feel exhausted - and we begin to doubt that they are even meant to be healers at all - yet, that’s not really true. What it really means is that there’s just more personal healing to do along the path of becoming a healer. And not ‘quick fixing’ either; we’re being called to go into our wounds and reclaim the truth in them.
These wounds are portals to our gifts. And really, this is just a sign that She-Wolf is calling you to heal your sensitive ‘healer’ wound around being able to fully honour your soul and her wild No (and wild Yes).
In our upcoming journey with ‘Lupa’, in May, we will be working with the remedy of Lac Lupinum - She-Wolf mama’s milk. A universal symbol of nourishment and nurture, Lac Lupinum is the remedy that teaches us to self-mother, to honour the nurturing of our souls that’s required for sensitive women - and how *all* of that is NOT SELFISH, but actually really nourishing to others, who haven’t had that modelled for themselves.
Because when *we* are fully nourished and ‘topped up’ this will naturally ripple out to others.
Choosing our own healing is actually the most deeply nurturing thing we could choose for the good of humanity - because it models a new, wild feminine way for the world.
A wild feminine way that values softness, tenderness, authenticity, purpose, meaning, and love (possibly words you don’t even associate with the world ‘wild’).
This is the remedy of WILD SELF-NOURISHING and DEEP SELF-HONOUR so that you can open to being a healer - for yourself, for your family, for your community, and for others who need your unique remedy.
It’s the initiation of the ‘healer’ - firstly, healing you, so that you can be nourished and feel well - body, mind and soul - but also because our wild self-honouring will then flow out into the world.
This is truly life-changing medicine.
Perhaps this Easter holidays is the time to rebirth the version of you who feels the fear of being judged as ‘selfish’, so that you can model healthy self-honouring and inner boundaries to all of those you touch?
Lucy Pearce’s writing about ‘Medicine Woman’ sums up, so brilliantly, how becoming a healer involves an ‘initiation’ process with reclaiming our wildness:
“It may be the first day of your life, the prime of youth or several decades in, when Medicine Woman calls you. Your name on her list. Her new initiate. She crept in whilst you were sleeping, when you over-exerted, when you kissed him, or ate that, or lived there or pushed too hard just one time too many. She crept in and curled up in your cells, your heart, waiting to meet you. Longing to know you. Longing for you to know her, at last.
And what feels like the end is in fact a beginning, of a new road, an unknown path of pain and healing. She will show you how to slow down, she will run her fingers roughly through your life and help you sort the busyness from what matters, she will show you how to find support… and who you really are, beyond your roles and expectations… and even more beyond the System the world has forced you into. She transports you into the timelessness of big pains and tiny joys. Initiates you into your strength. Into your love. Into your courage. Into a world beyond your control.
She has sent me an invitation. I see yours too, tucked in your bag, amongst all the receipts and bills, the pens and detritus of life. Take it out.
It is time.”
~ Lucy H. Pearce
Archetypal Lupa (She Wolf) calls us into healing the layer of ourselves that has wounds around honouring our soul fully and unapologetically (yet with deep love). She shows us how to be in the deepest loving honouring and welcoming of our souls and their unique purpose - our inner ‘wildness’ - whether that’s just tenderly opening to reveal more of what our soul has come here for, or to begin opening to the full, vulnerable, true expression of our hearts.
And she shows us, more deeply, how that’s the most honouring thing for everyone.
I wonder, this Easter break, what are you noticing about your own inner wildness, and where you are being called more deeply this way into healing your inner people-pleaser and reclaiming your own inner medicine woman? How easy has it been to honour your soul and her inner No (which often needs to come before your inner Yes)? How far are you finding it accessible to carve time out amongst this holiday to be with your soul?
If you’re finding that distractions (innocently) feature as the priority instead, and you long for change, it could be time for some tender healing and reclamation of your true self - to see your invitation to soul, take it out of your bag, amongst the detritus of life, and begin to open it.
It’s your time.
Join us in our upcoming 5 week journey with Archetypal Lupa (She-Wolf) in May to learn to hear your soul’s deeper calls - our Early Bird Investment ends on the 4th April, and women are already claiming their spaces, and my feeling is this journey will fill quickly, so don’t delay if you’re feeling the nudge to join us. Payment plans are available.
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All my love,
if you've any questions, send me an email.
Nicole x
