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Is it time to ‘re-mother’ yourself and reclaim the real you?

Is it time to ‘re-mother’ yourself and reclaim the real you?

And the real medicine is learning to love those aspects of ourselves back home, and welcome the parts of ourselves that we have shamed and judged and rejected (aka to ‘self-heal’). 

- Nicole Barton


Hello, sensitive one,

Do you ever feel the deep fear and shame at the idea of peeling back your mask and revealing your authentic self? And does that stop you fully opening to your healing gifts?  Perhaps you fear “what will my partner think?  What will my friends think? What will my parents think, if I open to a more magical, meaningful purpose?”.

I so feel your heart, beauty - and I know how tender it can be to even open to a journey of reclaiming our true, authentic selves, when we’ve spent years ‘fitting in’..  Your scared heart is so welcome here.

I remember a time when I simultaneously deeply longed to follow the nudges of a deeper soul calling I had to a more meaningful purpose and life, yet deeply resisted opening to my gifts as a healer, because I felt that my deep sensitivity, my natural (‘woo’) self and my true emotions were ‘too much’ and would be rejected and shamed - by my family, friends or anyone who I told.

What will people think of me if I open to becoming a healer? What if people judge me?

What will people think of me if I open to becoming a healer?  What if people judge me?

My point of view is that what it really means when we have some fears is that we are just on the cusp of actually beginning to see what IS true for us - and that there’s just a bit more healing to do - of our wounded inner healer (who fears losing approval, bless her heart).  It’s really just a deeper call into healing ourselves (which is what our Archetypal Apothecary modality is all about - especially the first layer of SELF - OR ‘SOUL’ - HEALING). 

- Nicole Barton


One of the deep fears that the beautiful, sensitive women who are called to journey with Archetypal Lupa is that they find themselves stuck in wondering:

“What will people think of me if I become a healer?  What if people judge me? Can I really do this?”

And oh my heart, I so feel you in this one, if this is you, beauty.  I know how the fear of losing   a p p r o v a l   can stop us from even ‘accessing’ our deeper wisdom and wilder dreams and yearnings for a more meaningful life, living our soul purpose.

How She-Wolf helped me open to my gifts as a healer through the fear of rejection and losing approval… 🐺

How She-Wolf helped me open to my gifts as a healer through the fear of rejection and losing approval… 🐺

Archetypal Lupa - or She-Wolf - offers an energetic ‘permission slip’ to be our true, authentic selves.  To begin to reclaim the parts of our soul that have been lost to this wounding of ‘not enoughness’ - the fear of judgement and rejection, the fear of being ‘outcast’ as a lone wolf, especially for being our true selves. 

- Nicole Barton


Oh, how I know you may resist that label of ‘wild’ (maybe it’s terrifying) - and maybe it also somewhat excites you too, deep down… 

I so feel your heart, because that was once me.  I was contemplating the other day, how I used to feel totally the opposite of ‘wild’ - I felt caged, trapped and contained, not ‘free’ and ‘fully expressed’.  I felt stuck in a dull, grey mundane life - a life I just didn’t feel fulfilled in. I see now, I was the Archetypal “Good Girl”; I lived my life in fear of judgement and rejection, seeking approval, sticking close to the conditioning that ‘success’ looked a certain way, and that I had to ‘fit into’ that. And, in contorting myself this way, I dishonoured my ‘No’ and shoved down and shamed my true authentic self-expression, keeping myself small.  

Of course, I knew somewhere, deep down, that I had ‘wild’ emotions - sometimes rage or deep emotional outbursts - but I shamed these ‘wild emotions’ as ‘too much’ (whilst feeling ‘not enough’) - feeling like the ‘weird’ one, who couldn’t just be ‘normal’ like everyone else and contain my raw feelings.  

Imagine… A day in the life of a healer…

Imagine… A day in the life of a healer…

‘The world needs the unique Remedy you’re here to offer.’

- Nicole Barton

Will you come on a journey with me? Imagine, just for a moment, that you step out of the life you are in right now - you’re just 3 years older, wiser, more expressed, and you’ve been on a journey of initiation into the woman you long to become.​​​​​​​​​

You’re now what people would call a ‘medicine woman’ - a true healer. You’re a woman who has been into the depths of her own wounds and learned to alchemise them into gold - and you’ve gained the kind of embodied wisdom and beauty that you see in women who have crinkly foreheads, and kind eyes. You’re an ‘old soul’ kind of medicinal one, a sensitive one, who knows and embraces her uniqueness.

Have you read our feature on Kindred Spirit? How to harness the power of Archetypal Gold to nurture your soul (and others)

Have you read our feature on Kindred Spirit? How to harness the power of Archetypal Gold to nurture your soul (and others)

“We all want the alchemical gold - yet very few of us are prepared to do the necessary deep work to lovingly reclaim it from within the darkness...  This January, I share how we can harness Archetypal Remedy ‘Aurum’ (Gold) to truly reclaim our power to kick-start your New Year - if you are feeling courageous enough for true, loving healing…”

- Nicole Barton

We are so delighted to share a feature we curated for Kindred Spirit Magazine all around our Archetypal Apothecary Remedy Aurum 🌟✨⁣


We all want the alchemical gold - yet very few of us are prepared to do the necessary deep work to lovingly reclaim it from within the darkness... This January, I share how we can harness Archetypal Remedy ‘Aurum’ (Gold) to truly reclaim our power to kick-start your New Year - if you are feeling courageous enough for true, loving healing…

Are you harnessing the True art and science of healing?

Are you harnessing the True art and science of healing?

"The real truth is, our work in healing is never done. If you keep going with 'quick fixes' you will forever need a guide, yes. In the Archetypal Apothecary path, though, I'm teaching you to own your POWER to *heal yourself.* That might take a little longer to learn to begin with - but then you've got your *own tools* for a lifetime - and you know your power to use them."

~ Nicole Barton

I was having a rich conversation with one of my previous guides, and now dear friend, Lian a little while ago, in which we were talking about what had unfolded since I had a shamanic healing with her.

I've been in the deep work, since the healing, of reclaiming a lost part of my soul from young adulthood - and I have found myself being nudged back to old commitments from that time, including movement, yoga, music and horse-riding.

And what stood out in our conversation for me was something I've been saying for a while about how healing isn't something to 'go to someone else for' and expect a "quick fix"; it's about learning how to *integrate* what comes up in our healings for ourselves.

Do you shame your powerful Feminine full expression?

Do you shame your powerful Feminine full expression?

"Now, it is an embodiment practice that I recommend to all the women who walk this path - because we can harness this art to embody the woman we want to become. I often invite women to adorn themselves with something that represents the Archetypal Remedy they are working with, for example Gold jewellery for Aurum."

~ Nicole Barton

Do you shame your powerful Feminine full expression?

I have changed somewhat in how much of the 'glamorous' side of me I'm willing to express - even in what could be seen as 'mundane' situations. 

I wore this to visit a potential school today, to decide about where and when to send Miss L for her education. I realised, as I went out the door, that most people probably wouldn't wear a beautiful white fluffy coat (from the moment I put it on I felt magical) and bright red lips to such a mundane event. I most certainly wouldn't have done in the past. 

And though I was always actually raised to wear 'pretty' dresses (and not jeans because they weren't 'Feminine' - I specify that because the appreciation for Feminine beauty in early life is actually quite a rare experience, and part of my gift) - somewhere in life, I learned to *shame* the part of me that loved Feminine glamour. 

Aurum’s true healing power

Aurum’s true healing power

"Often the time, energy, financial, spiritual investments of healing will look huge - yet it’s the (often invisible) costs of NOT HEALING that often go much deeper, to the bone."

~ Nicole Barton

I was feeling heartbroken the other day.

It might seem like a small thing, but I had the most beautiful deep earthly-green ancient victorian homeopathic medicine bottle, that I’d bought myself to honour and celebrate my rebirth of Archetypal Apothecary.  It was deeply symbolic and meaningful to me, despite not costing a lot of money. I’d had a Rose in it, the entire journey with Archetypal Rosa recently, which felt symbolic of the Remedies being part of the bottle.

And my baby girl smashed it, whilst playing.  Cue all the emotions around it being broken - anger, grief, applying meaning about what the symbolism was.  I was raging inside, and sobbing, though I gave Lily a cuddle through my tears and told her it was all ok (thank goodness for this healing work).

My inner child instantly wanted to ‘fix’ it, but the right hand corner of it had shattered into tiny shards; it couldn’t be glued.

What is the universal healing law of 'similia similibus'?

What is the universal healing law of 'similia similibus'?

"There's no greater privilege than to become who you truly are"

~ Carl Jung

One of the ancient healing wisdom bodies of my Archetypal Apothecary healing modality is homeopathy. It's a medical system that I was born to serve in this lifetime, and I've witnessed healing miracle upon healing miracle with its magic - both for myself and other women.

I no longer serve homeopathy traditionally - I serve the remedies as Archetypes - yet it is a deep part of my lineage, providing healing on a deep level and also providing the foundational technology I harness to map out a woman's soul plan. A soul map helping women understand their natural make up, their soul gifts, and the wounds they need to heal in order to fulfil their potential and live their purpose.

And one of homeopathy's most important principles of 'similia similibus' is woven right through my path.

Synthetic suppression - the cultural wound of our time

Synthetic suppression - the cultural wound of our time

“This is why healing the Feminine is our most important work. As women and as healers. It's both for us - and for the future generations - and for the loss of Ancestral feminine wisdom body that we have created, without meaning to - because we outsourced our power to the medical science that over-rode our deep innate knowledge.”

~ Nicole Barton

I don't often speak to the 'Ancestral Layer' Archetypal Remedies of our path, but they're a big part of our Soul Map - they are one of the 4 layers of Remedies that women need to heal in order to live their soul purpose (especially as healers).

You see, all cultures at a moment in time have their 'wounds' - ancestral wounds ('miasms') that are passed down in our DNA through epigenetics. Medicine women have always talked of 'ancestral healing' yet modern science itself didn't know, until fairly recently, that epigenetics explained this ancestral piece. Science recently discovered that what we do in our lifetime altars our DNA, which explains why what our ancestors lived through shows up in our bodies - even generations down the line.

What "Remedy" and "Potency" are you serving?

What "Remedy" and "Potency" are you serving?

“We are all walking around with our own unique collection of Archetypal Remedy "wounding states" that want to be worked with for healing. And so the first choice is, as healers, which 'layer' of remedy do we serve? Some will be more 'surface' layer than 'deeper' layers (read my article on Hering's direction of cure) - and these surface layer remedies are usually the ones that need healing first, so we can slowly and gently open at our soul's pace.”

~ Nicole Barton

One of the things I teach healers to do, deeper in the path, is how to read and match people's energetic "potency" when they are serving their unique remedy.

And this is *beyond* important.

Because, though many of the 'quick fix' approaches to healing (innocently) teach 'one size fits all', not everyone's healing is linear and requires the same remedy and potency.

What is Hering's universal healing "law of cure"?

What is Hering's universal healing "law of cure"?

“Because the body is more clever than we know. It will reveal to us where our healing lies. And it will do so at the pace we are ready to journey.”

~ Nicole Barton

Sometimes when I talk to women I can predict - just by knowing their Archetypal Remedy constitution - their natural physical health patterns through life.

"Oh, you experienced a lot of tonsillitis, or chest infections?" I could have told them that, just by knowing that they liked ice cream, feared the dark and had big eyes and deep sensitivity (all elements of Archetypal Phosphorus).

It sounds weird, I know, but each Archetypal Remedy will have its own unique set of physical health patterns (which is something that's unique about the way my modality works, as archetypal psychology alone lacks this physical map).

I spent a good chunk of my lifetime contorting myself into boxes

I spent a good chunk of my lifetime contorting myself into boxes

“I didn't know it then, but this was my body calling me to listen - to hear something important of my soul.”

~ Nicole Barton

I spent a good chunk of my lifetime contorting myself into boxes - trying to fit in and be 'acceptable' to the world, putting on a mask of 'perfection,' and particularly ignoring my sensitive needs in case I was seen as 'too much'. My deepest fear was abandonment, after my dad left, age 4, and I did everything I could to stop that happening again (including denying my healing gifts for a long time after I was called).

And that trying so hard to be 'loved' had me, on several occasions, burn out, into complete exhaustion, with mysterious womb symptoms, tension, and tightness in my body, deep anxiety and overwhelm.

Are you a wounded healer?

Are you a wounded healer?

"One of the clearest ‘markers’ of a ‘wounded healer’ is that she’s usually someone who has had an unusually extra-ordinary level of pain and wounding in her lifetime - which is actually a deep sign you are this particular archetype, and are being called to her healing. ”

~ Nicole Barton

I was speaking to a very special soul-sister the other day and we got talking about the Archetype of the ‘wounded healer’ (you know I love archetypal psychology, given it’s 1 of 3 ancient wisdom bodies of our Archetypal Apothecary path).


 

It got me thinking about how some women who feel a deep call to this path can have a clear knowing they are here to heal others (even though that largely feels terrifying when they first feel the call) - and yet other sensitive souls just know they feel a deep call to heal themselves and discover their purpose.  

 

It occurred to me (with my soul sisters’ beautiful reflection) that the Archetype of the ‘wounded healer’ explains exactly why that is - because many of us are walking around as unconscious ‘wounded healers’ - including those who aren’t actually “healers” in helping professions.

 

So, who are the wounded healers?

Is it time to welcome lost parts of you home?

Is it time to welcome lost parts of you home?

"The Secret Witch didn't come here for a mundane life...

~ Nicole Barton

It might sound a strange thing to say but my wedding, in my previous marriage, was a huge trauma for my sensitive soul - one that actually, at the time, had my soul bounce out of my body, because I didn't know how to regulate my nervous system back then and tend my little girl. One that had me deny my sensitivity and magic, and power, in order to stay safe, in control and approved of.

I remember being told by my in-laws-to-be that they "didn't like me, but they'd try", as my then partner apologised to his father for me asking for everyone to get along. My "witchiness" wasn't really welcome, my magic and my voice described as "weird" and my power having to be given up in order to fit into a family where men made all the choices (I later saw how I'd created this, that's one for another day).

Some women would have batted this off, but I was sensitive. My heart breaks, when I think back, for the younger version of me who simply hugged them and thanked them for "trying" to like me, and strived to do more to be loved and worthy and fit in, whilst she felt like she was out of her body, watching over as it all happened - literally having an "out of body" experience.

Have you read our feature on Kindred Spirit? “Reclaiming Wild Wisdom with the She-Wolf Archetype”

Have you read our feature on Kindred Spirit? “Reclaiming Wild Wisdom with the She-Wolf Archetype”

"A healthy woman is much like a wolf: robust, chock-full, strong life force, life-giving, territorially aware, inventive, loyal, roving

~ Clarissa Pinkola Estés

We are so delighted to share a feature we curated for Kindred Spirit Magazine all around our Archetypal Apothecary Remedy She-Wolf 🐺✨

We all know Clarissa Pinkola Estes' work with the Archetype of the wolf is hugely impactful, and working with She-Wolf (or more specifically with Archetypal Remedies, 'Lac Lupinum' - She-Wolf's milk) helps us to reclaim our inner wild woman wisdom.

This is magically timed as, in our recent group journey with Archetypal Rosa, the reclamation of our wildness made itself known as both a desire and medicine needed in the world - and I had no idea this would be the case when I wrote this article.

Can I really TRUST magic?

Can I really TRUST magic?

"But more importantly, there's a practical way we can learn to tend ourselves in the fears that *will* inevitably arise along the journey deeper - and that is the work of learning to have self-compassion, love the parts of our little girls that are trying to keep us safe.”

~ Nicole Barton

How to tend the fear of healing yourself and choosing a more meaningful, soul-led life of *more* purpose...

One thing I hear the most from women who are feeling the call to healing themselves magically and creating their lives differently - perhaps opening to their deeper sense of purpose and meaning, or some secret hidden healing gifts they sense they have (but feel terrified of) - is that of "can I really TRUST magic?"

There's often a preference for ‘logic’ in these women - and an (understandable) resistance to trusting the unknown. 

The Art of True Healing

The Art of True Healing

"Healing isn't something to 'go to someone else for' and expect a "quick fix"; it's about learning how to *integrate* what comes up in our healings for ourselves.”

~ Nicole Barton

I was having a rich conversation with one of my previous guides, and now dear friend, Lian yesterday in which we were talking about what had unfolded since I had a shamanic healing with her a few months ago.

I've been in the deep work, since then, of reclaiming a lost part of my soul from young adulthood - and I have found myself being nudged back to old devotions from that time, including movement, yoga, music and horse-riding (see her post about devotion in the comments).

And what stood out in our conversation for me was something I've been saying for a while about how healing isn't something to 'go to someone else for' and expect a "quick fix"; it's about learning how to *integrate* what comes up in our healings for ourselves.

I was struck this morning at the reminder of the level of courage that's truly required to walk the path of magical healing

I was struck this morning at the reminder of the level of courage that's truly required to walk the path of magical healing

"This work with Archetypal Remedies is the work of two of the most powerful ancient wisdom bodies I know of, working in union. It is a potent unity of the work of Homeopathy combined with Jungian Archetypal depth psychology. Two of the most powerful ancient wisdom bodies helping you to unite with your soul and *become* a medicine woman - firstly for yourself, and then for others.”

~ Nicole Barton

I was struck this morning at the reminder of the level of courage that's truly required to walk the path of magical healing - for both personal healing and the path of becoming a healer (which are really one and the same).

Often, women arrive at the path of magic after an initiation of health of some kind - whether physical, mental or emotional - where they've struggled to create any long-lasting change within the mainstream medical system.

And I know in my bones that 'The Way' for these sensitive ones is always to be found in magical healing.

Something soul nourishing is coming very soon for sensitive women... ✨

Something soul nourishing is coming very soon for sensitive women... ✨

"Because the truth is, these fears are not signs that you're not meant to be a healer, teacher or guide; they are signs that you're *absolutely* meant to be a healer.”

~ Nicole Barton

I remember the feelings that came up when I first truly began to feel and let myself acknowledge the call to becoming a healer, teacher and guide. 

I remember the terrifying fear of not being 'good enough', of feeling like if I stepped in, I'd surely fail. I remember the fear of judgement - the anxiety that if I honoured this strange call to more magic (which I couldn't even really trust myself to know if it was even real), people would think I was mad.