The scariest share I ever made 🌹
“There’s medicine in what rises when you don’t want to share. That too is the work.”
- Nicole Barton
The scariest share I ever made 🌹
I sometimes fear that my work feels confronting - and that you might feel that, too. But I’ve come to know that truth is the greatest act of love I can offer.
I can’t dilute my medicine - because it’s in the depth that we heal. And I’m here for that, fully.
There was a moment, years ago, in an online circle container - where I felt so outcast, so unseen. My heart was raw. My Secret Witch wound was rising in full force.
The Secret Witch wound is that deep ache of being too much, too sensitive, too different.
The fear that if we really speak, or feel, or show ourselves, we’ll be punished, excluded, or unloved.
I was guarding myself - not because I didn’t want connection, but because I’d spent a lifetime believing my sensitivity was "wrong."
I felt terrifying when I pressed the button to share. My nervous system was on edge. I sobbed. I felt like I was going to burn.
And then the reply came. Not with punishment, or rejection - but truth.
They said: "There’s love for you here… what's coming up for you that has you not opening to receive it?"
At first, I felt even more triggered. Like it was my fault. But when I looked honestly, the veil lifted - and I saw how deeply I’d protected myself against love.
How I'd guarded my little girl from disappointment. Kept myself from the very thing I longed for.
And something in me softened - in a way I’d never softened before. 🌹
This is why I created the Apothecary.
It’s a space for that kind of medicine. For the real stuff. For what rises when we begin to show up.
So when women step into the Apothecary, I know it’s no small thing. I know it stirs tender things - just by entering.
You might feel resistance. You might feel like an outsider. You might feel terrified to share. 🖤
Phosphorus is the remedy we are journeying with right now because she helps us welcome the parts we’ve outcast. She helps us soften into truth, even when it burns. 🔥
And I’ll be honest - it’s still a paradox I find hard to speak honestly about - the truth that:
You don’t have to share. You can stay quiet. Be the observer. Go slow. That's perfect to choose.
AND…
There’s medicine in what rises when you don’t want to share. That too is the work.
So know this: there’s no right or wrong. You won’t be excluded. And not feeling ready doesn’t mean you’re not meant for this.
All of you is welcome.
🌹 If you’re feeling the call to heal your Secret Witch - and you’re ready to meet what arises gently, honestly, and in your own rhythm - you’re so welcome in the Apothecary.
